6/25/05

I dion't give a fucking rats ass if i never see any of my friends again. i will just cry myself to sleep for awhile and then go on with my life as i have done in the past.

6/22/05

I've decided that it's the governments fault that my grandpa died that and the retard doctors. and people who like or support bush in any way.

6/20/05

I like a guy a lot. So much that he's pretty much all I can think about. Sadly I have no chance with him since he has a girlfriend and doesn't like me. Life sucks. Thats kinda stupid to say when its just a guy, but it does.  

GuY VS. GiRL <

When a guy is quiet,
Hes listening to you

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes hes wrong

When a guy looks at you with eyes full of questions,
he expects you to leave him soon

When a guy says Im Fine after a few minutes,
he means it

when a guy stares at you,
he thinks your the most beautiful thing in the world

when your laying your head on a guys chest
he has the world

when a guy calls you everyday
he is in love

when a (good) guy say he loves you
he means it

when a guy says he cant live without you
hes with you til your done

when a guy says i miss you
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else


GIRL FACTS

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.


When a GIRL says "I love you",
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future.

When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that

5/23/05

I hate being at my mom's house. I feel like I don't belong there. I dread going there so much that I make myself sick. I want to do as my brother did and just not go back there but if I do that it will appear as if i'm stupid and petty like Ethan. He stopped going over to my dads because he didn't like my dads rules. My reason for wanting to stay at my dads all the time is nothing like that, but it something I could never tell my mom. How can you tell someone that you no longer want to live in their house because you don't love them like your supose to and you can't stand their imaturaty and you have always wanted a mom, something they have never been able to be and they just aren't what you want them to be? How can you tell someone that even though they gave birth to you you don't love them you hate them for everything they've done wrong? I can't forgive her for anything she's ever done. I don't think I can stand even 10 more weeks here.