3/12/06
The Weakness In Me
I'm not the sort of person
Who falls
In and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection
Right
from the start
I have a lover
Who loves me
How could I break such a heart
Yet still you get my attention
Why do you come here
When you know I've got trouble enough
Why do you call me
When you know
I can't answer the phone
Make me lie
When I don't want to
And make someone else
Some kind of an unknowing fool
You
make me stay
When I should not
Are you so strong
Or is all the weakness in me
Why do you come here
And pretend to be just passing by
When I mean to see you
And I mean to
hold you
Tightly
Feeling guilty
Worried
Waking from tormented sleep
This old love has me bound
But the new
love cuts deep
If I choose now
I'll lose out
One of you has to fall
And I need you
And you
3/31/06
Right Here by Staind
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've
got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep
me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
to keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so
independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep
me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
to keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I
need in you
Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But
I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to
keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
to keep me right here waiting
3/27/06
Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boustfull or concided.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense.
It is not resentful.
3/19/06
LIFEHOUSE
"You And Me"
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep
up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing
to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of
you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head
spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing
to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's
something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause
it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And
I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And
it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And
in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
3/18/06
Why Can't We Be Friends By War
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we
be friends?
I seen you 'round for a long long time
I really 'membered you when you drink my wine
Why can't
we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
I seen you walkin'
down in Chinatown
I called you but you could not look around
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why
can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
I bring my money to the welfare line
I see you standing in it every
time
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
The
color of your skin don't matter to me
As long as we can live in harmony
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we
be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
I'd kinda like to be the President
so I can
show you how your money's spent
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why
can't we be friends?
Sometimes I don't speak too bright
but yet I know what I'm talking about
Why can't we
be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
I know you're working
for the CIA
they wouldn't have you in the Mafia
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't
we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be
friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why
can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't
we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
Why can't we be friends?
3/17/05
All there really is to say is that every thing now makes sense
or at least when it comes to certain things.
God what the hell is wrong with you. Its ok for you to do it at
a different time, but when I do it you get pissed. I really want to say something, but to do so would mean confrontation and
I hate confrontation. You have no clue how pissed I am right now.
2/9/06
1:32 a.m. and i have woken up. Umm actually thats slightly wrong.
I was woekn up by my drunken roommates at 12:49. Why you might ask do I know the exact time I was woken up. Well I looked
at my watch as I thought it was too early to 6:00 a.m. when I have to get up. This has become a routine thing, me being woken
up. I can almost guarentee it that I will be woken up by them if I go to bed before them. I have Chem 2 at 8 and Calc at 9.
So when I am woken up on a nightly bases I have trouble paying attention in class the next day, because when you get woken
up after sleeping for an hour or two it's like taking a nap and I'm not tired afterwards. A few times Deanna has said well
you know it is only 8 or 9 or whaterver you can't expect to get any sleep. I told them the first week of school that I go
to bed early and get up early. So they shuld know and respect it, but they can't. They complane when I make the slightest
noise in the morning, but think its fine to wake me up at night when I still have at least 5 hours to sleep left.
I finally told one of them that they wake me up almost every night.
My exact words when she said sorry for waking me up were "its ok i'm used to it. i get woken up almost every fucking night"
I am off to try to force myself to sleep.
2/3/06
It's official I hate South Dakota. The liberal me just doesn't
fit in at all here. They hate liberals here and in most of the states that suround South Dakota
